Something important I just realized and I want to document for myself:

People get used to stuff. If you're doing something and you don't enjoy it and you think you should stop, don't. You'll get used to it.If you know it's something important you should do, don't quit, because you'll get used to it.

Love,

Jesse

Yeah, so remember when I was all excited about my new job?! Well, I'm not anymore, and I've been wanting to leave, and I think God's opening up the way for me to work at the Rock. I've been praying about working at the Rock, and really asking God a lot to let me work there, and now it appears that might happen. I'm so excited again. I've been praying that they'll offer me a job, and I've been hearing about possible positions, but today James Swanson, the IT director, asked me if I was interested in their "desktop support" job. It'll probably be a big pay cut, but that's fine with me, I really want to get my foot in their door. I have to send him my resume, we'll see what happens. God is really amazing how he hears us and is so generous to us. Thank you God. You are so awesome!!!

I've had the best last two days. I was invited to the Horizon School of Evangelism for "bring a friend day". And I totally want to go now. I got totally involved and was serving with them at some event and it was sooooooo fun! Working with them was so enjoyable and encouraging and spirit filled. Such a contrast to my current job. It feels like a good direction to go.

Oh and, thank God he's taken away my fierce desire for investments and money and stuff! I was so consumed. He's shown me, in just a few short months, that money will not bring me happiness, and he'll provide everything I need anyway. So if you're worried about money, don't be, because he'll provide all your needs.

I'm going to start stepping away from NCR and the land of high-paying jobs. We'll see if my skeptics are right.

God is showing me some interesting stuff this week.

1. I'm going to live eternally. That sounds selfish when I say it, but it's actually really awesome. When I realize I'm going to live eternally, I realize how meaning less this part on earth is, er, that is, how meaning less my advancement on this earth is. I shouldn't be wasting my time trying to make quick money, or drive nice cars, cuz It's not going to last very long.

 2. I'm reminded again that it's not about me. There's some passage: "those who want to save their life, will lose it. Those who give up their life will save it" somn' like dat. Reminds me that it's not about me livin large, makin money, it's about me serving ppl, and that's where the peace,joy,fulfillment,happiness,hope,life is.

3. Dave Wessels, my discipler always says, spiritual growth is not a microwave, it's a crockpot. It takes a long time. He said last night it starts by renewing your mind which affects your thoughts, which changes your attitude, which changes your actions which changes your behavior and habits and finally your character. Thus, I can't just force myself to be more patient in a particular instance. It takes time, consistency, protecting my mind and heart, and filling it with good stuff.

New stuff goin on. I just moved out to Lakeside (hickville). The rent is cheap and my roomate is a really fun guy (although he's 31) and totally godly and encouraging. It's pretty cool.

My job is getting better all the time. I was strrrr-uglin with this project and was praying every day that I might get it done. Finally Subha (contractor from India) helped me get it mostly all done, Thank God for Subha.

I found out how expiznensive it is to start accounts with shoe manufacturers. My cousin said most companies require 10 - 25,000 dollar buy in. Needless to say, I won't be pursuing that for a while. I'm in to foreclosures again, maybe that will work. But praise God, he's helped me not to be so stressed about it or wasting all my time on it anymore.

Please pray for my sister, who just went into intensive care last night. It turn's out she's diabetic, and so she had one of those weird things where her body just realized it was diabetic and messed her up. She's kind-of comatose right now, but I hear she's going to be fine.  I'm sure it's tough mentally. Please pray that God will give her hope.

Meanwhile, life on my own is weird/scary/exciting. It's hard to make good friends in my position in life. I just started being discipled by this guy, that makes me super busy because I do bible study at Nick's house Wed. Bible study on Thursday at Chris & Sarah's, Friday night discipleship with Dave, Monday nights I've started going to AGO at SDSU. I'm going to start co-teaching a class at church (in Jan.): intro to computers. That will be fun.